Yea..WHat Anna said.
You are such a phenominal kid Joe. Just talking with you in the short amount of time I have. You show such eagerness to do this and do it right. And you are a very sensitive and caring person. Your funny and insightful.
But like Anna said. You need to focus on yourself first.
You do not need the added stress of all that messin with your head.
You know where we are.