[barb dwyer]

hi everyone -

ok so an update!!!

other than I MISS EVERYONE! I'm constantly asking stone to tell me what's going on here...LOL

ok -

went back to the doc, I may have mentioned - got another blood test,
this is a different doctor.

I showed him the swelling in my legs and flatly stated -
"I don't know whose legs these are bvut these are not MY legs."
I told him flat out what was going on with me

and he promptly upped my thyroxin dose.
put me on diuretics,
two prescriptions for pain ...
and all that.

In two weeks -

I'm a different person.

My legs look like my legs again
except for being a tad ORANGE due to my
experiment with a different kind of self tanning lotion.

*live and learn die and forget it all*
as my daddy used to say...

I have energy for tasks as long as I don't try to rush and
don't try to CRAM aditional tasks.

There is no 'tricking' the thyroid into thinking it's putting out more energy than it is.
Those days are over for me.
So this is a whole new way of being I've got to learn.

I still hurt -
don't misunderstand -
but it's manageable right now.
I am able to think about other things again for the first time in months.

I went to a bbq at my neighbor's house the other weekend.
I made the 'condiment and dressings' trays.
Which entailed a good bit of standing at the counter, prepping food to dress hamburgers.
Slicing onions, laying out cheesees, that kind of thing.

Tow months ago -
I could NOT have stood there that long and accomplished that task.

My neighbor came up to me and said,
"*barb* do you realize it's been since thanksgiving that you've been able to visit here, and not had to leave in half an hour?"
She was teary - eyed.

And no, I hadn't realized that.
But she was right -
the thanksgiving dinner at her house was the last real *outing* I'd had since all this really crashed and burned.

I am keeping this new doctor.
Period.
he did more for me with ONE prescription than the other
woman has done for me in two years.

I'm watching the sunsets and sunrises,
am going out and looking at the stars at night
it's been kinda cloudy though -
but the forecast for this weekend is brilliantly clear.
so i'll be out there looking for the Auruora borealis.

I think about all of you often throughout the day
and I try to include everyone by name in my prayers,
but sometimes I just do a 'blanket blessing' thing for my family at SR.