[Lady_Blue]

Hello friends. I've been around S.R. for a LONG time...(years!) I am a prescription opiate addict who has been clean no more than 3 months and have ALWAYS relapsed.....and I just did it AGAIN....my son broke his ankle the very night before his HS graduation....he had surgery 2 days after....and is laid up at home, recovering. I've taken his RX pain pills...(narcotic) I found God some 12 yrs ago, or he found me....I was overcome w/ his spirit...felt such an urge to get baptized....and I was....a few yrs later I started using prescription meds as prescribed....then started taking MORE than the prescribed dosage.....and here I am today. I need to know HOW to get God back....I've spent hours on my hands and knees begging. I haved prayed severeal times aday.....I NEED him back. I was never so happy in my ENTIRE life than when I FELT his presence.
Have ANY of you KNEW him before your addiction problem, lost him, and had a hard time getting Him back in your life? Or have most of you found him only AFTER your addiction? Any help, suggestions, feedback etc. would be so appreciated...... Lady_Blue