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I have MS and in the last year I have come to the conclusion that I was born feeling guilty. Guilt is a feeling I recall having all the time as a child and my way to counter this, as I grew older, was to focus on others.
This began with my older sister who had an eating disorder. I use to excerise with her not becasue I thought I was fat but so I didn't have to be alone. Following her it became men/boys.
Further more when I was small my mothers father and my own father hated each other and so when I use to visit my grandfather and he was nice to me, I felt guilt as it felt like I was betraying my father. And then I'd be in the same situation when my father treated me well, I'd feel like I was betraying my grandfather.
Ahhh, Alcoholic Families eh? Can't live with them, can't kill them.
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