Well, first off Paulos.
You are still here posting and the sky didn't fall on your head.
You might not like to here it but that is the best it gets for some of us!
So, what are you judging yourself by? Bill Gates or some kind of middle class american ideal?
There are tribes of people still living that live in forests take hallucinogens and eat rats, stop judging yourself.
How much do you drink anyway?