[Paulos]

I finally got to my new doctors office and saw a therapist but I'm scared :\ The main point is I'm anti social and I have real issues with meeting new people lately... the therapist was kind of nice and believed I'm ocd/depressed/anxious suffer from Panic Attacks, also gave me some real good advice about alcoholism as in another reason not to take it with medications. But... the fact is .... the intake worker who was taking care of my paperwork who was good and all I was scared to death of the whole procedure, the paperwork... I didn't even have enough time to read the words on it... I had a minor anxiety attack in the building, hopefully I swear to god the alcoholism and medication is making me suffer this bad because of all that it's done to me and there's hope to recover, but I'm so scared of even going back in 2 weeks ... I just ... it's like I didn't feel comfortable there but I'm so messed up even right now I'm worried at home... worried that as usual I'm not good enough and never will be ... oh boy it is very uncomfortable and dampening to one's spirits... I just hate how I'm so inept at things and ... and I'm of course scared of going back...