Hey there, (((least)))
If you have time, try what I did the other night... If you have time, go back and reread some of your old posts. Post some more to encourage someone else who's struggling, too.
Remember that drinking the wine will only help temporarily. Can you take a nice shower or bath? Take a walk? Listen to some music? These things help me, at "least."
Thinking of you and behind you ALL THE WAY. Please hang in there, ok?
Oh -- btw -- I know you've probably covered this in your posts, but are you currently seeing anybody for the anxiety?