[tanyapmc]

When I was getting sober this time I was extremely willing when it came to the steps. I was so sick and tired of the disease and I was truly dying.

I jumped into the steps immediately and did a thorough 4th and 5th step. I got through 6 and 7 without any trouble and got onto making amends.

I did all of my major amends except for my step-father. He was the first person on my resentment list. When it came time for amends I just COULD NOT do amends with him. I was worried that at 17 months sober that I had not done the amends with him. His part was so big that it was hard to see my part. But I DID have a part and I knew that. I just kept praying for willingness. I read the big book where it said that if we do not finish our amends that we would drink again. That scared me!

Oh Father's day weekend I went and spent the night with my step-dad and Mom. I went to church with them of Father's day. The topic/sermon was on forgiving your earthly father. I was shocked. I felt like I was being talked to individually.

The preacher went on to say that the best Father's day present would be to tell your earthly father that you forgive him.

Actually I had forgiven my stepdad a while back. BUT I had NEVER told him. THAT was my part. In a way I held him in bondage by not telling him that he was forgiven.

When I left that day I hugged him and told him that I forgave him.

I don't know how he felt about it but I felt WONDERFUL. I still feel great.

I have such a bigger appreciation for the amends process not.

I feel like I just got sober and am riding the pink cloud again.