[urkaburka]

Hi don't know if I put this one in the right thread, but hope its ok anyhow(I'm really not clear here in my head atm..)

Well long story made short. I have abused both drugs and alcohol, last one least. But I got delerium tremens once. I really started drinking alot of alchol because I could not sleep when I didn't do drugs(ages since.. smoked hasj, weed or took rohypnol to sleep.)

I also once ended up a drug induced psychosis because I had been eating rohypnol for about 7-8 months and just quit on the day ( you need to step those things down gradually as with alchol when drinking alot of it), and the same thing happen with alcohol but only with major abuse over a 4-5 month period with a fast stop.

Nowadays they have me on various sleeping pills and the one I was on until last thursday was called nitrazipam. I was given that one 1 time before but I didn't drink any thing then but I did that this time and it was a damn wet weekend to....
After this I couldn't sleep and I read on the documents for the drug that this drug must never be mixed with alchol(never took em on the same day even). (on both occasions I was given and took 10 5mg tablets, one each night). Now I'm getting a sort of delerium tremens feeling, does anyone know what I have to do? Do I have to step down on alchol(I mean drink alittle then less and less?) Go to the doctor or take half a pill or something? I haven't slept since sunday night and feel real strange.

Grrr I hate the stupid police for going so crazy for the hasj/weed smokers here. I started abusing rohypnol(Big Mistake!) because it's alot more "invisible(easy to throwaway), and because the police was catching me with hasj/weed(Dear God don't let them sit there watiching movies,play xbox and eating kebabs/burgers! those evil criminals sort of thing). that was a big mistake... The next mistake was to start drinking, getting delerium and then beeing fed drugs even far worse that that rohypnol because I have severe insomnia.. I cannot see the logics in western society sometimes. That one little puff before bedtime would been all I needed to sleep and function and sleep all along. No alcholhol abuse and no damn benzodiazepines(think thats english spelling) of any kind.

I have increased hart rate from delerium tremens, starting to get hearing hallusiantions wich occur in both and get dissoriented/confusem, wideawaked-yet-tired. In these cases I had psychosis and delerium I was out of the hospital after aweek but the aftermaths took alot of time. I really dont want the embarasement by going to the hospital though this is a case of a stupidbloke not reading his perscription note properly...

I feel so ill right and tried to google ended here, and soon I think I will go for a bottle of wine to see if it gets my feet on the ground. Then I'm going check if that works and go buy a sixpack or perhaps even 2 just to be safe. If anyone have medical experience or information on this subject I would be really happy, I'd rather want to be sick here for a couple of days than going to the damn hospital and everyone would know what an idiot I have been