gosh - this thread made me think....might not be too on topic but here goes....
When I got sober this time one of the big hinderances to my recovery was my inability to let go of who I was the last time I was sober. I had reached a level of comfort and thought I knew who I was...I had been very happy with that self definition for many years sober. But.....i was changing and i couldn't let go of that set idea (old idea) of who I was....I clung to it and when i began to drink i clung to it even harder.
Now i am having to let go of my ideas about who i am. who i am will constantly change over time...it isn't even about better or worse, sick or well, it just that all things change...including my "self".
so i see this as a journey of letting go of my old ideas about self...even the ones i got after i got sober
