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ksos · 06-09-2008, 11:23 AM

Hey folks,

Here is the latest news, which is about the same as all the news thus far.

I called my PM MD's office today to check on the status of my surgery and the admission date and, thus far, the process is all, but completed, except I am awaiting the insurance approval.

I asked the person who has been handling this whole thing why is this taking so long, and she said it is up to my insurance. I replied that I was informed that the pump and device were approved, which they were, and she said it is the hospital stay that is pending the approval.

For once, I would love these suits to feel 20 minutes of what I feel. I went out today in Brooklyn's 98 degree heat and was heading to my first NA meeting of the day, and I suddenly felt dizzy and started having palpitations like a panic attack, but I remembered that I haven't had a PA in almost 20 years. I had to turn back, and I felt like crap for missing the meeting. I was so pissed off about this entire situation, but that was it...

I called my sponsor and he said he will come and walk with me tonight to my home meeting, but I just feel like I am losing my strength...I never felt this way before.

I am 6'1 and 220 pounds and before this pancreatitis hit me in 2004, I felt vital, strong, and walked with confidence. Now, I am like an old man--even my Dad at 70 years old, looks better than I do.

I am just really depressed today, but you all make me feel better...Thanks for all the prayers, too.

Love always,

Ksos

06-09-2008, 11:23 AM	#56 (permalink)
ksos Waiting For Engines Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: brooklyn, new york Posts: 545	Awaiting Insurance Approval--Wish they felt like I do. Hey folks, Here is the latest news, which is about the same as all the news thus far. I called my PM MD's office today to check on the status of my surgery and the admission date and, thus far, the process is all, but completed, except I am awaiting the insurance approval. I asked the person who has been handling this whole thing why is this taking so long, and she said it is up to my insurance. I replied that I was informed that the pump and device were approved, which they were, and she said it is the hospital stay that is pending the approval. For once, I would love these suits to feel 20 minutes of what I feel. I went out today in Brooklyn's 98 degree heat and was heading to my first NA meeting of the day, and I suddenly felt dizzy and started having palpitations like a panic attack, but I remembered that I haven't had a PA in almost 20 years. I had to turn back, and I felt like crap for missing the meeting. I was so pissed off about this entire situation, but that was it... I called my sponsor and he said he will come and walk with me tonight to my home meeting, but I just feel like I am losing my strength...I never felt this way before. I am 6'1 and 220 pounds and before this pancreatitis hit me in 2004, I felt vital, strong, and walked with confidence. Now, I am like an old man--even my Dad at 70 years old, looks better than I do. I am just really depressed today, but you all make me feel better...Thanks for all the prayers, too. Love always, Ksos