[Last Call]

Day 69. Anyone left in the <3 months group? Seems pretty dead around here. Things are going OK, no major drinking urges.

Sort of existing on the fringes of AA, going to meetings a couple times a week, but haven't really engaged in the program at this point. I feel like I am regaining some clarity in my thinking and I am giving some thought to exactly how I plan to approach recovery going forward.

I am no longer the miserable, isolated, angry person I was drinking. And I don't feel like there are these deep rooted issues that left unaddressed will force me to be miserable and drink again if I don't start doing steps. Removing alcohol has made a big difference, part of me feels like not drinking is enough, every part of my life is better as a result.

Last night I got to a meeting and "Is Not Drinking Enough?" was the topic, so I got to hear 15 people explain how people like me are doomed to be a dry drunk, miserable and certainly drunk again, if we don't get a sponsor and get busy. I just listened and did not participate in the discussion. But it certainly has me thinking.

Oh well, I hope everyone is doing well.

LC