so, i hit that meeting. not bad...it didn't kill me. but i was still at the point in wd that i would have gone back 'out there' had i not taken more serious measures. the worst of the WD was through but the anxiety and panic was killing me.
so...i went to my local ER in the middle of night and they were great. gave me a two day supply of klonopin (I didn't ask for it) and set me up w/ a Dr./psych today to get down to business
i'm so happy to see a real Dr. about this. I am hoping for some outpatient treatment right now...i think that would help. but what the **** do i know
(disclaimer): i know people say to be careful replacing the oxy habit w/ a benzo...and i agree, but my nerves calmed dramatically and i ACTUALLY slept a bit last night. felt great. either way, i am telling the dr. that one of my goals is not long term benzo/clon use
another thing...yest i had no terrible urges to use...yay