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My wife left me in 1992, she came back in 1993 for a short time, we were divorced in 1994. This whole time I was trying to get sober and she did not want that. Her son (my step-son) had committed suicide in 1991 and she just couldn't live with the pain without alcohol and downers. I married a crank ho in 1995, she left in six months after going through my settlement money (VA and SS). My then ex-wife who I still loved died of an over-dose in November 1995. I took up with another crank ho and we spent my monthly check for the next two and a half years. She was physically the meanest woman I have ever known. When she was loaded and wanted to fight it was toe to toe. She had whipped most of the guys in town and when we got together I started getting some respect from the guys. They knew that if they messed with me they would have to mess with her. When we broke up in 1998 she would come back every first of the month for the sex, drugs, and rock-n-roll. She had a boy friend and he didn't care much for this. He snuck up on my farm one night and tried to kill me........got real freaky. About August of 1998 I was real tired of life.................the only answer to this problem was God and AA. I got sober, divorced the first crank ho, and have been single for the last (almost) 10 years...............I had a couple of affairs, and now have a girlfriend (church lady).

I have learned to live with myself............man do I ever like it.

Jimmy, I have a club..........."Bachlor till the Rapture."

Want to join?


Just kidding about that...........My experience is that until I learned to live with myself, I was no good for anybody else......Just my experience.

Nobody can steal your Salvation or your Sobriety........two important aspects of life


One day at a time brother...........no telling what God has in store.

Thanks for letting me do some of my fifth step.........I need to be reminded of where I came from.