Hello Nors !
How sad your post made me feel, from both perspectives . i was a drunken mother to my son, who left home to join the defence force when he was old enough. We have certainly had our ups and downs, and Oh! how i regret my behaviour towards him, now that I have a small time of sobriety . I am hoping that in time i will be able to mend my bridges .
For you , all you need to do is have desire to quit drinking , then DONT pick up the first drink TODAY
personally I chose AA and rang the number in the phone book, I have had nothing but loving support since , andf i have 59 days sober , and am feeling good ! Whichever programme you choose , we will be here for you , there are many wise and loving people here who will be along shortly to offer you support !
Keep posting, and have a read around and ask questions !
Look forward to getting to know you
DONT leave it as long as I did
HUGX from downunder
Lee