(((Joe)))
Life is always changing. It's like a river that you can never step into twice.
We want stability and control, but, that's only an illusion.
We learn to accept what is and make the best of it as we travel along this journey called life.
Your emotions are raw right now. I'm sorry you're hurting.
But, you will recover and, yes, even grow from this experience.
Hard as that is to imagine right now.
But, to grow, you need to allow yourself to do so. And that means you need to be straight, and to allow yourself to feel your emotions completely. Not dull them with dope. The drugs will only numb your emotions and stunt your growth. My son is 28, and in many ways is still the 14 year old that started using drugs.
If you are depressed, and you're 17, you should really talk to your parents and see a doctor. There *is* help available. If you are dual diagnosed, you need to be treated for both the depression and the drug use together, assuming you are physically addicted -- are you? If you are not physically addicted, then the treatment for depression, whether it be therapy, natural or pharmicutical medication or a combination of both, will help you stay clean from the drugs. Please speak to a doc. Get the help you deserve.
And let us know how it goes. We care.
Shalom!