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Thanks Judith and it certainly wasn't too long a reply. I will check out that link in a bit.
Yes, I do have a lot going on in my mind just now and I am desperately seeking answers. However, I came across a concept on the internet last night of bipolar and co rumination. I think this is what I am doing. I am sharing my rumination with anyone who will listen to me.
I share your thoughts on sexuality, I probably shouldn't have mentioned me being heterosexual mother of two. I read something years ago that the author said they believed we wre all bi sexual but suppressed that part of us. I think the reason that attraction hit me so hard was because it was so intense. I have had attractions to women before but usually quite fleeting. Not enough that I felt I could change my whole way of life for. I do actually think it is an area of my life I would like to explore further but I can't really without betrayal, so I will just have to forget about it.

Thanks also Pedagodue. I may when I have confidence with my new therapist bring the subject up. I am just so scared that telling him will make him stop seeing me. You may be right about it being what they provide that I am lacking elsewhere.

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