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dotcom · 12-16-2003, 10:31 PM

hi there juls

i am young, and still trying to find my niche...but i believe i can relate. i started a new job in july on top of my other one. at first, i was so thrilled. i was going to get out there and get them organized. well, they are all organized now, and i find myself drifting in and out of consiousness when im sitting at my desk.

then i thought..."dotcom, a vacation is what you need!". so ive been putting aside some dinero for the past year, and i now have enough to go. well, i am excited about it definately...but the thrill has passed...and all thats left is a handful of cash and a calendar waiting for me to pick a date...thats just too easy though.

so i dont know anymore. ive gotten back into school and just took my final this evening. im sure ive got an a. once again, the thrill is gone. who cares about the a? now ive got to wait a month to take on the next class and get that thrill again.

but you know, even though my life is getting more dull, i am more satisfied then i have ever been. probably because of my relationship with God, my HP. no matter what i do itll never fill the void that he does. but yeah, i dont know what the next step to take is. ive already signed up for new classes and stuff.

i am sorry to ramble, your post really made me think.

dotcom

12-16-2003, 10:31 PM	#5 (permalink)
dotcom Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: laughing at my avatar Posts: 1,636	hi there juls i am young, and still trying to find my niche...but i believe i can relate. i started a new job in july on top of my other one. at first, i was so thrilled. i was going to get out there and get them organized. well, they are all organized now, and i find myself drifting in and out of consiousness when im sitting at my desk. then i thought..."dotcom, a vacation is what you need!". so ive been putting aside some dinero for the past year, and i now have enough to go. well, i am excited about it definately...but the thrill has passed...and all thats left is a handful of cash and a calendar waiting for me to pick a date...thats just too easy though. so i dont know anymore. ive gotten back into school and just took my final this evening. im sure ive got an a. once again, the thrill is gone. who cares about the a? now ive got to wait a month to take on the next class and get that thrill again. but you know, even though my life is getting more dull, i am more satisfied then i have ever been. probably because of my relationship with God, my HP. no matter what i do itll never fill the void that he does. but yeah, i dont know what the next step to take is. ive already signed up for new classes and stuff. i am sorry to ramble, your post really made me think. dotcom __________________ probably not.