I understand this kind of restlessness too...and travwl seems to be the only "fix" One day I will take exotic trps but for now I just look around my community for new things, old things, oddities...I like unusual things. Maybe doing some art or writing would help you? Really throw yourself into it. I can get into the "zone" when i write sometimes(of course there are those looong frozen spells too) LOL!! I will think of some more things that might interest you. I must say..your title of your post scared the crap outta me!!! I thought Oh No! She's suicidal......what to do? Bless ya. Had me sweating and holding my breath a minute there, LOL
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Many Hugs and Hope too,
Tammie
"Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~
"Things do not change, WE change."
~Henry David Thoreau~