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The_Hammer · 05-18-2008, 11:53 AM

I just noticed this forum and thought I'd drop by and share. I normally hang out in the Bikers in Recovery forum, but This is up my street too.

In January, 1988 I was a whisker from being killed in a rear end accident in Nebraska. Since that accident I have had many (7) spinal surgeries to repair the fractures and then I contracted stenosis, degenerative disk disorder and spinal arthritis, both post-traumatic and the good ol calcium deposit type. (spurs on the pedicles, etc.). Often, the pain is debilitating and has basically took me over. But so did the junk. After a surgery 7-26-07, The monkey crawled back up and told me lies. I gave in and from 4-1-08 to 4-21-08, I took 504 pills, including 60 mg pops of straight morphine sulfate and massive doses of fentanyl. I conned 3 experienced Drs. to get all this **** legally. To say I am fortunate to be alive is an understatement. My HP is so much stronger than what I gave Him credit for. All of the times He snatched me from the coffin, and now this huge addiction too! All of it in His hands, all of it relieved as he had promised!

So where did the pain go? I dunno, don't give a damn either. All I know is that I am free and gratefull is such a weak word for how I really feel. Since I have been clean from the junk, (4-26-08), I have had my family moving out in a few days, one of my very near friends was killed and I feel great. No reason to shut the door on it.

Just my take.

05-18-2008, 11:53 AM	#1 (permalink)
The_Hammer Guest Join Date: May 2006 Location: Fremont, NE Posts: 810	Opiates and pain and the Monkey I just noticed this forum and thought I'd drop by and share. I normally hang out in the Bikers in Recovery forum, but This is up my street too. In January, 1988 I was a whisker from being killed in a rear end accident in Nebraska. Since that accident I have had many (7) spinal surgeries to repair the fractures and then I contracted stenosis, degenerative disk disorder and spinal arthritis, both post-traumatic and the good ol calcium deposit type. (spurs on the pedicles, etc.). Often, the pain is debilitating and has basically took me over. But so did the junk. After a surgery 7-26-07, The monkey crawled back up and told me lies. I gave in and from 4-1-08 to 4-21-08, I took 504 pills, including 60 mg pops of straight morphine sulfate and massive doses of fentanyl. I conned 3 experienced Drs. to get all this **** legally. To say I am fortunate to be alive is an understatement. My HP is so much stronger than what I gave Him credit for. All of the times He snatched me from the coffin, and now this huge addiction too! All of it in His hands, all of it relieved as he had promised! So where did the pain go? I dunno, don't give a damn either. All I know is that I am free and gratefull is such a weak word for how I really feel. Since I have been clean from the junk, (4-26-08), I have had my family moving out in a few days, one of my very near friends was killed and I feel great. No reason to shut the door on it. Just my take.