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Ditched work again today....my daughter had a bad asthma attack late last night/this morning... Went to another meeting today (wow, 3 in one week!!!). Plan on going to another one tomorrow. Still having thoughts...not with the urgency or desire I had previously. More of, well, for lack of better phrasing, "a longing" or wistfulness. Usually when my brain/body is idol.
Took a long walk this evening and did a lot of praying. Asked God to please help remove my burdens. Time to walk away from the fire before I get burnt. It's dumb. It's stupid. It's unnecessary and very dangerous. Intellectually, I know all this. It's the rest of me that craves being at the edge. The instability. The indecision. The chaos. Excitement of sorts.
While I was walking and praying, I got stuck on "and the wisdom to know the difference". I think I'm going to dwell on that. Going to do a bit of reading before I go to sleep.
Blessings,
Jen
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