| The cumplusion to drink or use was taken from me some years ago. I am truly grateful to a loving God, and the loving people of AA who tolerated my insanity and told me to "Keep coming back," when nobody else was inviting me anywhere. Except the cops, they always had a place for me!
I think the complusion left sometime after I made the decision to go to meeting not for what I might receive, but when I went to give something back to AA. To shake someone's hand, to give someone a hug, to look someone in the eyes and tell them honestly that I was glad to see them,.........maybe to just go get someone a cup of coffee. To put up chairs, rinse the coffee pot, and wash ash trays (when we had smoking meetings). When I started doing these things because I wanted to, things changed in my mind and spirit........
Today I have a complusion to live......I am running over three miles a day, and have lost over 25 pounds in the past 4 months.......that is complusive behavior I know for sure. |