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comfyone · 05-14-2008, 03:40 PM

Hello again, I came here awhile ago with anxiety and depression. I was also a substance abuser and self injurer. And I stopped posting or looking at these forums and then I stopped making any effort toward other kinds of help (meetings, counseling) and I just tried to deal with my problems. I thought I was doing ok. I didn't do any drugs or hurt myself. And I wasn't having panic attacks or severe bouts of depression.

Then last night.... I had a SEVERE panic attack and it felt like I had made no progress and I felt so helpless. I felt alone and it felt like all the emotional and mental problems I had ignored all confronted me at once. It was like I was right back where I was in January when I had such anxiety that I could hardly function. I realized that I wasn't really dealing w/my problems, I was in denial and pretending they weren't there. It was the worst panic attack I've ever had.

So now I feel like the idiot who thinks he's too good to accept help. Last time I posted on here I said to myself that I wouldn't be that guy. I was going to keep going to my counselor and make real effort. So i pretty much failed that. I pretended I was ok. And I see what happens if you do that b/c I'm 100% right back where I started: Feeling scared like I could have a panic attack at any time and lose control.

05-14-2008, 03:40 PM	#1 (permalink)
comfyone Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Ohio Posts: 23	feeling stupid Hello again, I came here awhile ago with anxiety and depression. I was also a substance abuser and self injurer. And I stopped posting or looking at these forums and then I stopped making any effort toward other kinds of help (meetings, counseling) and I just tried to deal with my problems. I thought I was doing ok. I didn't do any drugs or hurt myself. And I wasn't having panic attacks or severe bouts of depression. Then last night.... I had a SEVERE panic attack and it felt like I had made no progress and I felt so helpless. I felt alone and it felt like all the emotional and mental problems I had ignored all confronted me at once. It was like I was right back where I was in January when I had such anxiety that I could hardly function. I realized that I wasn't really dealing w/my problems, I was in denial and pretending they weren't there. It was the worst panic attack I've ever had. So now I feel like the idiot who thinks he's too good to accept help. Last time I posted on here I said to myself that I wouldn't be that guy. I was going to keep going to my counselor and make real effort. So i pretty much failed that. I pretended I was ok. And I see what happens if you do that b/c I'm 100% right back where I started: Feeling scared like I could have a panic attack at any time and lose control.