| My apartment is actually a single unit on top of a bar - which i never actually used, surprisingly enough. There's zero temptation there. unfortunately, part of my addiction and recovery is that I have terrible credit, and I tried looking for new places, but didn't get approved. it's a beautiful apartment in a really nice part of chicago, and I feel like I would be sacrificing a big part of my life and happiness if I moved out.
the girl who offered me the pot just moved in on may 1st and is going back to school in august. she's very understanding, and went into the other room to smoke. venting on here helps a lot, to be honest. I already feel better. thankfully I couldn't smell it. the other roommate only smokes because I did, and i know beyond the bag that he is about to kill, he wont buy another one. he just can't afford it. sooo, maybe it'll be okay. i guess i'm asking for advice about how to keep myself mentally stable.
a big problem is that i work in the music business. music is my PASSION, and i wont give that up for anything. I will need to get used to being around pot. it's just part of the job. I used to think I had to use to fit in, but now i realize that I can't make my career when i'm using. so being around my roommates is almost like a test to see if i'll be able to produce a concert or a festival and not sneak backstage to puff a j. |