[MagicMan08]

So I am only drinking in little bits now, rarely talk to the girlfriend. I kind of agree that like making it the forbidden fruit, almost makes me want it more.

I d'no it is my nature to like to get buzzed up, and I am a relatively pure user yet....minus a couple of things.

I still get that tendency to drink and drive tho, just this last Tuesday, I drank and drove like an 18 pack deep. I was blacked out through most of it, but I know in my mind I KNEW i was confident enough to drive and I am sure did just fine.

But later my brother called and said one of his buddies passed me,and he was asking if i was alright, so I donno what is up. Jus an update, still going to meetings, pretty much have lost all contact with my ex. I see it as a transition into a new better me.