| lblack,
I, like many others here, haven't ever heard of anything like what you are doing. Maybe you have an addiction problem but maybe you don't. Maybe your craving and eating comet is something different - a mental disorder, a vitamin defficiency, an effort to harm yourself. You seem convinced that it is an iron defficiency because you can see it lessen when you take your iron. And yet, you still do it, even when you when you take your iron as you said in your latest post above.
So.... here's what it looks like to me: You absolutely must swallow your pride and your pain and go to a doctor as soon as you can. Only a god doctor is going to be able to help sort out what this is. And when you don't even know what it is, how can you attack it? How can fight an enemy you can't really even identify?
You are clearly miserable. And I feel empathetic. I think health problems of any nature are difficult. But you've got one that is very hard for others to undrestand (your husband is doing a good job of being understanding, I think. My husband would've freaked out at me if I revealed a craving like that). And you don't even know your cravings' true nature. Please, please, please see a doctor so you can learn more and begin taking the recovery path that will help.
Please. Every day that you do not make an appointment with a doctor you are seriously injuring the mother of your children. I'm pretty sure you want your children to have a loving and healthy mother. They deserve it. The havn't done anything wrong. If you can't do it for yourself because of embarrassment or emotional pain, do it for your children. Please.
I am praying for you,
MLE |