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Gertiegirl · 05-09-2008, 07:25 PM

Hi everyone, just popped in to introduce myself. I'm a Christian, effectively still new in my faith (was baptised July 2006) and I am an alcoholic.

I confessed this to my Pastor not long after my baptism and asked him to help me, and in the 2 years since - we have tried everything. Deliverance ministry, spiritual warfare, the church paid for me to attend counselling, and my Pastor spent 6 months working intensly with me thru a 12 step programme. All these things have provided short term release from the drink, but eventually I always return to it. Two days ago I was forced to confess I was drinking again and things have blown up in my face. Through finally facing the consequences of my drinking - God has no given me a genuine desire to stop. So here I am -again-, searching for recovery. My Pastor has now told me in no uncertain terms that I MUST see a drug and alcohol (specific) counsellor, I MUST attend AA, I MUST be accountable, keeping a drink diary and being in contact with his wife weekly and meeting with him monthly, and I MUST attend The Alpha course again to strengthen the foundations of my faith. If I slip on any of these things he will in conjenction with my husband have me assessed for a stint in a residential facility (Salvation Army Bridge programme). I couldn't stand to spend that time away from my children. I am a completely funtioning and controlled alcoholic, I do not drink during the day, don't drive drunk, my children are well cared for -happy and loved. I am actively involved in church life groups and day to day you wouldn't know I have this problem. It rears its ugly head when the kids are safetly tucked up in bed, thats when I being pouring anywhere up to 3L of wine into my body. Ive been doing this on and off for 8 years. More on then off. I know that this is drawing me further and further from God, this is a stronghold of the enemy and I know if I continue it is going to get progrssively worse. I know that the time is near that I will begin drinking earlier in the day, and taking greater and greater risks. God is calling me to lay this down, and be dead to it - and with support, Im praying I will succeed this time. I've come here looking for further support, from Christians who understand what it is like to battle this "super" sin as many Christians seem to view it - and who can pray for me and help me to lean into God more when this gets rough, as it inevitably will.

Thanks to everyone reading this, that alone shows you care.
Luvvies in Christ.

05-09-2008, 07:25 PM	#1 (permalink)
Gertiegirl Member Join Date: May 2008 Location: Whoville (with Horton) Posts: 111 Blog Entries: 1	"Super" sin? Hi everyone, just popped in to introduce myself. I'm a Christian, effectively still new in my faith (was baptised July 2006) and I am an alcoholic. I confessed this to my Pastor not long after my baptism and asked him to help me, and in the 2 years since - we have tried everything. Deliverance ministry, spiritual warfare, the church paid for me to attend counselling, and my Pastor spent 6 months working intensly with me thru a 12 step programme. All these things have provided short term release from the drink, but eventually I always return to it. Two days ago I was forced to confess I was drinking again and things have blown up in my face. Through finally facing the consequences of my drinking - God has no given me a genuine desire to stop. So here I am -again-, searching for recovery. My Pastor has now told me in no uncertain terms that I MUST see a drug and alcohol (specific) counsellor, I MUST attend AA, I MUST be accountable, keeping a drink diary and being in contact with his wife weekly and meeting with him monthly, and I MUST attend The Alpha course again to strengthen the foundations of my faith. If I slip on any of these things he will in conjenction with my husband have me assessed for a stint in a residential facility (Salvation Army Bridge programme). I couldn't stand to spend that time away from my children. I am a completely funtioning and controlled alcoholic, I do not drink during the day, don't drive drunk, my children are well cared for -happy and loved. I am actively involved in church life groups and day to day you wouldn't know I have this problem. It rears its ugly head when the kids are safetly tucked up in bed, thats when I being pouring anywhere up to 3L of wine into my body. Ive been doing this on and off for 8 years. More on then off. I know that this is drawing me further and further from God, this is a stronghold of the enemy and I know if I continue it is going to get progrssively worse. I know that the time is near that I will begin drinking earlier in the day, and taking greater and greater risks. God is calling me to lay this down, and be dead to it - and with support, Im praying I will succeed this time. I've come here looking for further support, from Christians who understand what it is like to battle this "super" sin as many Christians seem to view it - and who can pray for me and help me to lean into God more when this gets rough, as it inevitably will. Thanks to everyone reading this, that alone shows you care. Luvvies in Christ.