| Welcome, Ravensoul
I can relate to the misery of not being able to quit as we all can, I was pretty much in the dark tower cycle, just call me Roland of Gilead (from your post i'm sure you will get that) Until i deciede to get outside support and a great program to follow (AA) i could not break the cycle of on again off again. For me AA works there are other programs also that help with the alcoholisim, just try any of them until you find the one best for you.
Take care,
John |