| "my dogs have to suffer befause I am destitute. god hates me ther is nomor to be said"
"if i am lucly I will die. my dogs desere better than this"
God doesn't hate you Least, you are hating yourself right now. And no one is going to love your dogs the way you do. I somehow doubt that they are suffering because I know how much you care about them. There are a lot of people here with years of sobriety who had relapses before they made it. Right now it sounds like you are suffering from an alcohol induced depression. Been there more times than I'd like to admit myself. Don't throw away all the hard work you've done just because of a lapse in judgment. My heart is hurting for you and I'm worried. Just hang in there because you will feel better as long as you don't drink. I'm praying for you.
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