[nandm]

((((((least))))) You need to change your name to "most" as you are not the least by any means. You are a human being who is sick and tired of being sick and tired. I am glad you keep coming back and trying to find the answers. Don't give up as they will come.

I too hated the emotions that came along with early sobriety. I felt so overwhelmed that many times i thought I would drown in the sea of those emotions and wind up forever in a mental hospital. But I found that I could get through it. It took changing my outlook on life to a more positive one. Forcing myself to see myself as a worthwhile human being that is just as important as anyone else that walks this earth. We are all in the same boat but some of us have gained enough strength to use the oars. It takes time. It is a process but you can get stronger and healthier. Life will change as long as you give yourself a chance and never give up. Take care.