| my depression is telling me to do anything to feel better. but what I want most is to feel NOTHING. I can't deal with these feelings. I'm not used to them and I only want to NOT FEEL AT ALL. I'm fighting this with all my strength but can tell 'it's' gaining on me. I want so badly to just be numb. I'm sick of having to look at myself, I hate what I see when I look at myself. I see a loser, a zero, a nothing, a drag on humanity. I'm on meds for depression anxiety and bipolar but they don't seem to be helping. I'm at the end of my rope. Please god help me, i can't do this anymore.
feel like i'm on the verge of a mental meltdown. don't know what to do or where to go. feel like I would be better off dead, but can't abandon my dogs. please god please deliver me from this madness. |