| I think of my dogs as a gift from God. He gave them to me to love and care for. So my being 'whole' and well is to care for them properly. I've had too many nites where I woke up late having not fed them on time. I can't do that to the dogs, especially the diabetic one. His health depends on regular food and insulin injections.
I have to have someone, some 'thing' to hang on to to keep me sane and sober. The dogs are that 'thing'. Besides, I think God gave them into my care. So i cannot, will not screw up, as their lives depend on me.
Am I making any sense? I'm grasping at straws here as I have a problem with 'God'. I depend on my dogs for unconditional love, such a rare thing, and cannot but give them my best. Which I can't do if I'm drinking. So I will depend on the Creator of my beloved dogs to keep me sane and healthy to care for my dogs. |