[hippyhippy]

To the person reading my posts,

It is ok, I forgive human frailties. Curiosity is a human trait, you are as likely to be afflicted as anyone else. I should never have allowed so much information to pass my lips and then you would never have been able to read my threads. If I were in a similar situation, would I do the same out of nosieness? I cannot say 'no' in all honesty. That is not to say you aren't guilty of being a nosey twit, cos you have.

But, I have done wrong, I have done really wrong and that is what this is really about isn't it? You know what I have done and I cannot amend it. I am ashamed, deeply ashamed, I don't know why I did it. I'm doing a bit much of that these days eh? My behaviour is spiralling out of control and I am set for collision with disaster. I am responsible for myself, you know I feel that strongly, so I offer no excuse.

I will not tell people on here what I have done as they are too important to lose with a dishonourable discharge. I don't think you will either, or you will expose yourself.

peeps, I did something really bad. No one is hurt by what I have done, but they could have been. I have absolutely no right to be such a pompous cow. I cannot tell you what I have done, for the shame of it and I am sure if you knew, you would never ever want to talk to me again.
It is important to me that you think well of me, so please believe me when I say that I am very sorry for this 'thing' I did and that I will never ever do it again. It was out of character, it betrayed trust (and I have the gall to go on about my spy?) and basically was just sooooooo wrong on any level.
I cannot forgive myself and cannot really expect anyone else to especially when I don't tell them what they are supposed to be forgiving.
I have to find peace within myself for this and I don't know how to do this.

Thank you for all the times you have been here for me. You have been my saviour, you have been my place to cling to when all around me was crazy.

Thank you
Hippy
xxxx