| A month is good for an alcoholic like me. Instead of beating yourself up think about how often in your life prior to this you have strung together a month of sobriety. For me, I relapsed after the first 2 months of my journey. I was heartbroken and beat down at first, but then I thought for a moment. Since my 1st drink in college, I had never strung together more than a 2 or so weeks and in he last 5 years, I never stung together more than a few days without a drink.
So back to your month - that is in short a miracle if you are an alcoholic like me. I am back up to 1 and 1/2 months and rolling on. I have 2 relapses under my belt in the past seven months. I accepted each relapse for what it was, asked for help, looked for triggers and worked towards moving forward instead of dwelling on my mistakes. I am a stern believer in "progress rather than perfection" and from your posts in the past and currently, I would say that your progress is tremendous.
Keep on moving forward!!
ps one thought - go back and read your posts from the start. See if there are any noticeable changes in what you posted, how you posted or attitudes of your posts. Use SR as a journal and see if you can look for signs to be aware of if you are nearing relapse. |