[Paulos]

I should have posted it here in the first place, here's my update all.

I'm back on the mattress stage in my mother's room to rest/sleep on. Is that matress or Mattress ... man lately I have not been able to remember anything or understand anything technical. You all may remember me back in March when I went through my Lamictal medication withdrawal, well then I went back on it around April 1st then I was put on Risperdal which was another mistake... now I'm going off Risperdal and having some trouble with security, crying,etc ... it's amazing that I haven't drank through this tough time... my mom said I'm eating myself alive with my paranoias and my ocds but what am I supposed to do about it...? I feel terrible, that's why I'm back in my mother's bedroom on the mattress on the floor. I've become a pitiful little worm. Sigh.