Hi, wellgirl,
And welcome to the MH forum of SR!!!
I'm sorry to hear about your insurance. The insurance problem in this country is such a big problem! But, is it possible for you to get into a group therapy situation? Cuz a cognitive behavioral therapy might do wonders for you, based on what you've stated.
I'm glad you recognize that drinking is a dead end street. AA may or may not be helpful. It's not therapy, but a spiritual program of self help to quit drinking. Only you can decide if it is right for you or not.
Other things that can help with your anxiety is to care for yourself physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. That means to eat right, exercise; learn new things; practice positive affirmation and do little things for yourself that are good for you; and reconnect with your Higher Power. This is a tall order, I know. Start doing one thing a day, then build up so that each day you're doing some of each category. When I do so, I feel much better.
I hope this helps. And I hope to see you here often as we both grow in our recovery.
Shalom!