[serenityqueen]

Ok SkyeHigh, there's my touch of sarcasm

Yes I have been affiliated with AA for many years, but unfortunetly I find myself in the position of too embarassed to walk back in. Aside from the longwinded stories it would take to explore the full reasoning---in my area all the meetings have been graced with the glorious lunacy of my drunk and preaching in some god forsaken tone of grandiosity. Subsequently of course I would show up the next day shaking like the last leaf on the tree. 10 years of walking in and out, and I think that door is closed---but before anyone else jumps on it: yes I could still go to a meeting, but I choose not to anymore. Be that my disease or I talking, I don't know. Input is always welcome though! I must be overthinking this, which mention it as such, is perhaps overthinking the thinking in and of itself.

But seriously, I had been in and out of AA/NA for 25 years before I "finally got it." It's never too late. The only door that closes in the Program is the lid to one's casket.THAT'S the only time it's too late.

Yes, it's your disease telling you not to go to a meeting. With every meeting we go to and every time something that is said sinks into our minds, it takes just a wee bit more power away from our disease.

As serious as it sounds like your condition was last night, and I'm sure still today, did you leave against medical advice? No, you don't deserve to be suffering at home if your life is at risk. I think we need to feel the pain in order to remember how it feels, but not to the extent of possibly losing your life.

Keep Coming Back It Works IF Your Work It!

Judy