[Paulos]

Hi all again, how are you. How am I? Heh. I'm feeling fearful and insecure today which I am... it's a terrible feeling really, to be purely honest I wish it would just go away... I wish I felt smart and great like I once did... before I started drinking life was way simpler and easier, way more fun and I thought I was great at what I did. Jeez, everything is just way too overwhelming for me lately, and either irritating or tough for me... I hope this isn't how it's always gonna STAY.