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hey classysista.......
I feel your pain. My live in boyfriend and I went thru all of the same things, that is until he left me to get clean. Even after I stuck by him during and after all the days of him off smoking in some scumbag apartments in the ghetto, after him stealing my car to go smoke crack, after sitting up with his 12 year old daughter worried to death about him while he was out. All of his promises were broken, all the times he said he could do it alone as long as I stood by him. He would have a good run for a few weeks, then the littlest thing would send him off. I walked on eggshells. I hated Fridays (payday). But I hate all of this more. I know he needs to focus on him, on his recovery and feels that he has hurt me so much already and not being able to do anything but focus on that would just hurt me more (he thinks). But it hurts to be the one left behind. It hurts that I cannot accompany him on this road to recovery. I only joined this site yesterday (he only moved out last weekend) but already, I have gained some insight. My suggestion is read others posts, read all the responses and find a al-anon/nar-anon meeting in your area and GO!!! Prayer for him and for yourself.....for the strength to help yourself heal. Good luck!
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