[Seeker957]

Recently I've realized that I have an odd pattern of behaviour. Whenever something happens in my life that is beyond my control, I tend to lash out at others or make inappropriate relationship decisions regarding the people closest to me in my life, as a means to regain some feeling of control in my life again. A big example that I can give you is that when I have faced bullying at work or unjustified terminations of jobs, I have then in turn made horrible choices in my other more personal relationships, that have often times resulted in terribly torn and unfixable situations. I am realizing that I do these things as a way of trying to regaining some control again in my life. Does anyone else here do this? And can any of you give me any suggestions about what I can do to stop doing this. I wasn't even aware that I do this until very recently, but when I look back on other situations in my life, I can see that this is a terrible pattern I've had for years. How can I stop this? Does this sound like Bi-polar?