Hey Guys,
Trying to keep things light while my mind is running wild. I need to vent about a relationship I am obbsessing about. I keep thinking about this girl in many different ways even though weve been broken up for about a month now. Of course because of my obbsessive nature it took me a while to realize she didnt want to be with me anymore. Its so weird, towards the end of our relationship I wasnt totally happy but there are two reservations I have about that. I wasnt taking medication I was supposed to be taking and I wondering if things would have been different if I had taken care of myself more and just kept things light. People had told me to keep things light several times in our relationship but I think we were both so into each other, or so into being codependant that our relationship was always intense. I think we had some communication problems, maybe some big ones. My heart, gut, soul keeps wanting to cry about how lovley it felt to be with her when things were good and it was great to project 'us' into the future, u know marriage, house, whatever. And now that were not together im doubting the validity of our relationship. Well I know what we had was real but a part of me felt very happy with her. A previous addiction had kept me from close personal relationships for a number of years and this was the first real intimate relationship since. So go figure... I just want to cry that things were awesome, then they got confusing, and even though I have alot of blessings things kinda suck and its hard for me to let go?
One day (At a time!) Ok guys, thanks for letting me share,
Willis the Briton