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Welcome lilbit, glad you have joined us. I too am SmartAzz certified. Just this morning my mouth got me in trouble and had to do a 10th step before I could get any serenity for the day.

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There is a guy that lives down the road from me who is having some work done building dog kennels. They've been hauling dump truck loads of 2" rock, and being careless, there was hazzard size rocks scattered for a mile and a half up to the highway. Yesterday I kicked several out of the road in front of my driveway. Last night as I was coming home from an AA meeting on my scooter, as I turned off the main highway and onto the road that leads home, I ran over a 2" rock. Freaked me right out, and triggered my anger. I forgot about it, and this morning as I got up early to jog, I got a little way up the road, and had to kick rocks out of the middle of the road. This retriggered my anger, and I know that anger for an alcoholic can be deadly. As I continued to run, low and behold, here come the dump truck. Well I stop them. I jump up and holler to the driver, "who you workin' for?" He points to the guy riding shotgun, and I know him. I've known him since he was a baby, know him mom and dad also. I jump up on the running board of "his truck" and tell him to pick up the rock on the road, and that I ride a scooter and it is very dangerous. He tells me that he did not drop it on purpose. I say that I know that, and ask him if he know who I am. (meaning the crazy vietnam vet that scared half the country side 10 years ago when I was drunk and strung out on crank) He said "I know who you are," Then I hollered, "pick it up," and jumped off his truck. I was going to continue my run but it started raining, so I went to the YMCA to get on the tread mill.

Man I was bummed, my mouth had robbed me of my serenity. The day started out really good, and here it was around 8:30am and I was trashed for the day. The program of Alcoholics Anonymous has over the years taught me what to do about this. Step 10, "when wrong promptly admit it." I wanted my serenity back! Even though I was right in asking that they pick up the rock, my attitude and anger was not acceptable. I could have said the same thing with love and everything would have been cool. I called up his mama and got his cell phone number, spoke to him and said I was wrong and asked him to forgive me for my anger. He did, and I went out on the road and picked up all the rock up myself......................Man I grateful that I am sober, in my drinking days I would have probably been arrested this morning and ruined the day for several people and their families.

Going to another meeting tonight...........need to sure up my program to keep out of jail.

Thanks for letting me share this lillbit..........I needed some place to dump it, and this looked like the spot. Feel free to share what ever on any post here on the board. We need your input..............I love you and there is not a damn thing you can do about it.

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