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Originally Posted by liesagain  unless YOU are going to make some kind of change for YOU when you see this information...............really all your doing is making yourself upset and giving him a reason to blame you and go use......( not that he needs one because when theres no real reason they can/will and often do just make up reasons to be angry with you to justify their using) |
And see, the thing is, I know this, In my heart and in my mind I know that I can't contol him and that the change starts within myself. I get so frustrated with myself sometimes because I will do so good about not snooping or controling him then I just slip and I'm right back where I started.
I know that he is going to use if he wants too. I guess I just over think things. I want him so bad to understand that his lies and drug use is killing our marriage but he doesn't seem to care. In a way I think he cares I just think that the addict part of him doesn't allow him to see the way things really are.