[GailJ]

Ok Hubby at it again...Think I am his emotional bashing board. I just keep soaking it in, gitting to the point I've spent so long being the sound board I have forgotten myself altogether. Really want to talk to a lawyer and end this lonliness. I have so much to offer and so much to be apprietiated for. Just no one to share it with except you all here. I worked today and got a good chunk of overtime. Came home and rode the riding lawnmower to my sanctuary by the river. What a mess. I did my best to clean up the winter squirrels nests and the mouse nests out of the trailer. So peaceful down there, No phones, no people, just cedars and rivers, a few cyacing city folk. I am well hidden from home, from strangers. from the road. I am smokey and sooty from cleaning. Hubby is trying so hard to leave me now. Really hates me yet I really don't do anything to deserve it.
;He hangs out now with the he man woman haters club. He listens to everything they say. He is a coward and a doormat to whatever they want. Yet just this morning I am told is all my fault. Can't do anything cause of me yet there is nothing left I can give up...........................Really think It's time I do kick him out. There is nothing left. Sorry You may be thinking I should be on the relationship forum but it is the anxiety and the knowing whats coming that is spinning my knoggan.