Suzette;
That's a great way to look at it. As a bad, abusive relationship.
Because of my drinking ways, I always gravitated towards men who drank heavily as well. There is one relationship in my life that completey changed my life and me. That man had such a powerful hold over me. I was young and he was quite a bit older and I was head-over-heals. It was a terrible relationship and I eventually got out. BUT it took me three years to get over him. THREE years! I was a real party girl and was never without a date. I had lots of 'good guys' come in my life...lots of losers too....but lots of opportunities for relationships with really nice guys. But I'd have none of that. I was so completely traumatized by the end of this abusive relationship that for three years it didn't matter who came into my life, I couldn't think of any other man but the one I'd broken up with. I was obssessed with him. I could think of nothing but him. No other man compared in any way to this man. I honestly felt that I would never ever find another man who made me feel like that man did. I had completely resigned myself to the fact that the rest of my life would lack because I'd never again find anyone like this man.
Guess what. I got over him. It took a long time. But I did. And now, I HONESTLY look back and think 'what the hell!' HOW ON EARTH could I have even given that ass a second look let alone be so hung up on him. I actually feel embarrassed now about having been with him. BUT......at the time, I felt like I was suffocating without him. Every minute was a struggle to not go back to him. But my life is so much better now for being rid of him. He was a terrible person. I can't express enough how lucky I was to get away from him. I ended up finding a man who I felt ten times more about than I did that other man. And am so happy now.
So this is a great comparison. It was so hard to not go back, but years later, I can't believe I ever THOUGHT about going back. Hopefully the same will happen with my love/hate relationship with booze.
Suzette: You're a genius!
