Thanks to Tay and everyone else for this thread!
I feel very much like you, Tay, now that is. I didn't before I slipped, but after a few little slips where nothing
really bad happened I have that feeling of wanting to drink without consequences... that gives the addiction something to work on. The little voice can start suggesting things like 'just do it once every two weeks' and crap like that.
After a few more little slips the consequences have started making themselves felt more and more. If I dont stop/surrender soon I could be back in a binge cycle properly again.
I have no words of wisdom but this thread has helped me, so thankyou.