| Tay,
It is wonderful to here that you are having a peaceful morning.
This may sound silly - but try thinking of drinking as a relationship. A bad abusive relationship that has ended. In your heart you know that it would be very dangerous for you to go back to this abusive person, but you miss him so much.
He has hurt you and your kids have been witnesses, he has taken precious time from you
by controlling your every move. He has made your life miserable. But he is all you know and part of you wants him back.
Alcoholism is no different Tay. It is an abusive relationship that we grieve for when it is gone. With time you will move on, it will no longer be in your thoughts as often, and you will know that you do not want to go back.
Did I make ANY sense?
Love,
Suzette |