| Hi jilly, glad youve found this site.
-Three weeks ago i was feeling just as you described, scared, paranoid, terrified of the future and life in generel.
Im very blessed to say i now have three weeks sobriety.
It DOES get better and you CAN do this.
I have drank all my adult life, i started off binge drinking with friends when i went out- progressed slowly to drinking every day in excess of one bottle of wine or more, TRIED to cut down and return to drinking occasionally- which only resulted in me drinking RIDICULOUS amounts after any period of abstinence.
So after my last black out/time memory loss and raging hangover i decided to quit.
This place has been fantastic, ive also been attending AA , although i was very reluctant at first and i havent got the courage to speak out there yet it has been very helpful in keeping me focused and most importantly, sober.
Keep posting and reading, i myself have learnt alot from others experiences on here, it has helped me immesurabely to feel that i am not alone.
You dont have to be alone with this either.
Best wishes, |