| I'm going to try to answer your questions, point by point, similar to the way nandm did.....
But first.....Freedom1990 reminded me of something.....in reading their post I was reminded of the one and only time I 'thought' about drinking.....I was about 7-10 days sober and had to fly home for my mom (from Houston to San Francisco). Many folks here may remember the thoughts: why not? who's gonna know?.....lol But all I had to do was sit back with my coffee and/or coke and watch the young woman across the isle.....slammin' back beers like they were goin' outta style, and of course a couple of mixed drinks (before dinner cocktails, if you will).....Then, about 1/4 of the way through her dinner she throws up............uuuuuuggggggggghhhhhhh ..... her only statement was: it musta been bad food.....lol, yeh, right.....
Since that time, not a thought (not a serious one, anyway). Last year, when I got my 21 year chip, I called a friend of mine in the program, who also received her 21 year chip the same month.....and as we decided on where we would go for our annual anniversary dinner, I jokingly said, "Well, alrighty now.....let's go get blasted....!" Of course it was a joke, and we both laughed....and BTW, in case you're wondering, we did NOT go get blasted...lol
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....and now to the OP questions.....
"Do you ever get to the point of not wanting to drink anymore?" -- YES
"Would you classify wanting alcohol as a need because you know you can't drink it, or would you prefer not to drink anymore anyways because you enjoy sobriety better?" -- Unlike nandm, this one is black & white for me. Since I do not WANT alcohol, I obviously don't classify wanting alcohol as anything....and I definitely prefer not to drink because I enjoy sobriety (I don't know about the better part, just I enjoy sobriety.....period).
"my hope is that I become sober so long that I really don't want or need alcohol anymore." -- You can get there; just be patient; it'll come....honest, would I lie.....hehehehehe
"I'm not completely naive to the fact that there are times where I will get the desire..." -- Fact....? Well, I don't know about that. That one instance for me on the plane wasn't a desire, just a fleeting thought...and I know some others who've never had a desire to drink after getting into recovery, so it is possible.....One thing though, if you feel it is a fact; that you WILL get the desire, then I guarantee you will.
"...but do you really want to drink anymore?" absolutely not, I do NOT want to drink any more.....and I won't..... (o:
I hope this answers your questions.........at least from my ES&H, which is the only answers I have..... (o: You're new to recovery/sobriety, Jeff, so just be patient; take one step at a time; one day at a time.....remember, we didn't become alcoholics in one day, we don't attain recovery/sobriety in one day either.
NoelleR
P.S. Like 1963comet said.....I, too, never think about drinking any more; drinking/not drinking is a NON-issue for me |