04-17-2008, 06:07 PM
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| Life the gift of recovery!
Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Home is where the heart is
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| Ok, I'll bite although I don't know that I can be considered a sobriety veteran. I have 7 years sober. Quote:
Originally Posted by steamvessel Do you ever get to the point of not wanting to drink anymore? Or, is it still on the back of your mind? | I rarely even have it cross my mind anymore. I probably have thought about drinking once at the most twice in the past year. Even then it was a fleeting thought not the nagging obsesssion. I lost that nagging obsession early in sobriety, after working through the steps of AA I found that my mind didn't spin about drinking anymore. Quote: |
Would you classify wanting alcohol as a need because you know you can't drink it, or would you prefer not to drink anymore anyways because you enjoy sobriety better?
| Good question and you are right there is no black and white answer for me. I know that for me to drink is to commit slow suicide that hurts every person who cares about me while I am going down. As far as prefering not to drink, yes, I prefer not to drink. I have friends who drink, they drink normally have one or two and have no problem leaving a glass half empty. Being around them when they have a glass doesn't bother me. I have even bought them a gift of a nice bottle of wine before. I enjoy my life more sober. I am able to live my life rather than be a bystander wishing I could participate. When I drank, I dreamed of all the things I wanted to do but either never got around to doing them or was too drunk while doing them to truly enjoy them. Sober I not only have found the time (and money now that I am not wasting it on alcohol) but also can truly enjoy the experience for what it is and remember it. Here are some of the things I only dreamed of doing while I drank but have been able to do since I got sober.- Learn to drive a motorcycle
- Take a motorcycle trip through Canada and several states
- Go to Mauii
- SCUBA dive
- Return to school to pursue my dreams
- Take an Alaskan cruise
- Have a healthy and strong relationship without the constant nagging insecurities I had while drinking
- Find true friends; the kind that are there through thick and thin
- Learn to love and accept myself for who I am
- and the list could go on and on.....and will continue as long as I stay sober
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.... but do you really want to drink anymore?
| Definately the answer here is easy, NO. I have no desire to drink anymore.
Not sure if any of that makes sense but those are my thoughts on your questions. |
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